Stress

Time managment
Over run with responsibilities
Over tired from work
Things keep going wrong
Health issues
Lack of love and support

If you are suffering from 2 or more of the above named stress causers chances are you are stressed. Today I find myself self suffering from all of the above. I can not seem to keep my daily living activities and happenings in my life in order. Have you ever felt like at any minuet the whole world might just crash down on you? Well I am starting to feel like that is about to happen. I am going to give myself a couple of days and watch to see if the sky remains in the ozone layer cause if thing keep going the way they are going I might just find myself with a lack of oxygen due to the worl crashing in around me.
Today my ex called and my child is really sick from bronchitis. So I shall take a bus up and spend the weekend with her ( and him ). My baby has been with him for 2 weeks now. Now it looks like she might have to stay for another week. That hole that she fills in my life is getting bigger and bigger. I was very happy she was coming home tomorrow and wanted to get back into the routine of having her with me. But now it appears I shall go with out the love of my life for another week.
My ex is finacialy fucked and it looks like I will have to lend him more money to look after our daughter. I mean its not like I am not working and in college and have to take a cab every day to get to school. If I were doing all that it would be hard for me to scrounge up money to lend him right.
Apart from all that today I missed school because I took a tumble down the stairs and fucked up my back. I am now up too 4 days I have to make up and do not know how I am suppose to do that.
Ahhhhhhhhhhhhh

Okay part 2 is stress releiving activities .
Since salah is the only one who reads this blog lets ask him which activitie he thinks I should do.

Have a bath and read a book
Write an even longer blog about all the crap that is going on in my life <--- He is going to pick this one ( bah ha )
Get very drunk very very drunk
Go shopping and get nails done
Run away and hang with friends

Okay Salah what do you think?

So Salah tells me I should use my blog to write my thoughts and notes out, like a diary I share with the world. So I guess my thoughts of the day would be people can really suck sometimes.

I am working at a senior citizen home and although it was a good day cause none of my residents decided to hit me ( I am in the Alzheimer's ward) it was a very eye opening day to how selfish people can really be.

One of my residence is a very violent individual. I today wrapped my mind around why one resident can be violent when another suffering from the same disease can be gently only confused. As we were dressing this individual we will now call Suzy I noticed her clothing was all worn and she owned one pair of underwear and the elastics are coming out. I asked about this and was told her family never visits. I discussed it with my teacher and she justified it that they figure Suzy will not remember them anyways.

Is that not the most selfish thing you have ever heard. Sure they are paying a lot of money to keep her in the home and cared for but her personal needs that the facility does not and can not provide are falling apart. I noticed she has no T.V. no pictures nothing. No wonder Suzy is hitting people.

I started paying attention to the other residence and thier personalities. One of my clients is very sick and does not realise what is going on half the time. You can still get a smile out of her and her husband visits everyday. Another client is so confuse she yells and screams she is always cold and everything is awful but no hitting and today a family member visited her.

It is a very horrible conclusion but I am starting to believe that human beings revert back to infancy. If I baby who has no idea what is going on is loved unconditionally although the baby may cry from time to time it will also smile. An infant can not tell you they recognise you and may confuse your name and your role in there life they will always know you as someone familiar if you are around them allot.

Family is so important in every society it is sad that people put thier own needs and emotions in front of a family member in need. I don't care what the excuse is whether it hurts to much to visit or there is not enough time or Suzy wont remember me. It is sick sick sick!!!!!!!!!!

So Salah that was my day.

This first post is dedicated to Salah. The maker and creater to this blog. Its beauty is all because of him except for my pic that beauty is because I am beautiful. Thank you Salah for helping me maintain my rock star image....... Cheers

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